When We Look for the Troubled Mind, There Is No Fixed Thing to Grasp
When Huike said his mind was not at peace, Bodhidharma told him to bring that mind. The story says that when Huike looked for it and could not obtain the mind, Bodhidharma said, "I have already pacified your mind."
Suffering is certainly felt. Yet when we look precisely for that troubled mind, it cannot be grasped as one fixed thing. Many thoughts, emotions, memories, and reactions gather together and only appear as suffering.
This does not mean we should deny that suffering exists. Rather, Hyedal sunim is telling us not to inflate it into "something that completely torments me," but to look calmly and see its lack of fixed substance and the way it works.
Today, when a troubled mind arises, do not hold it and make it larger. Look for it quietly, shine awareness on it, and let the mind settle into ease.
Suffering is certainly felt. Yet when we look precisely for that troubled mind, it cannot be grasped as one fixed thing. Many thoughts, emotions, memories, and reactions gather together and only appear as suffering. We are not denying suffering; we are calmly seeing its lack of fixed substance and how it works.